In the blink of an eye

Dear Elijah,
                   a week ago today we celebrated your 3rd birthday, I cannot believe 3 years has passed since your frightening entry into this world. I cannot imagine a life without you in it and can barely remember life as it was before you came. Its like you have always been here.  Wow, 3! You are certainly not a baby anymore, you are a real little boy. You continue to amaze me, just as you have done every day since your birth. You speak very well, have done for a while now. At your last assessment at the Mater they reported you as having exceptional communication skills - not bad for a little boy born at 28 weeks! You sing songs, and recite pages from your favourite stories. You are also fully toilet trained, yay no more nappies. Another thing i dreaded but you took to like a duck to water.
This year has seen big changes in your little world. I had to return to work, only part time, but it means you now go to daycare. You have handled these changes like a superstar. The first couple weeks you were harder at pick up time than you were at drop off. You didn't want to come home!  You hit a little bump in the road last week when you realised it was a permanent thing, but touch wood, this week you were back on track. So many nights I couldn't sleep worrying about how you would cope. I was 97% sure you would be fine, but there is always the small percent of what if's. What if you changed, what if you were scared, or lonely, or bullied. But your teachers are great and I really think I made the best choice with the centre I chose for you. You especially love Miss Jean.
You still love reading and singing. Now whenever you hear music on TV you yell out to me to come and dance. Boy do you have some moves! You can count up to 20 and only leave out 15 for some reason. You recognise lots of letters and numbers.
You are such a funny, smart, handsome little boy. I often look at you and just cannot comprehend that this amazing little creature came from my body- we  created you! I still tear up when I look at you, I wonder if this will ever pass?  I think though the thing I love most about you (apart from EVERYTHING) is that you are so loving. Often out of nowhere you will just come up to me for a nuggle and you are not too stingy to hand out lots of kisses, and when I say I love you, even if its the thousandth time that day, you still say i love you too. You love everyone, and everyone cant help but fall in love with you. The day you were born I didn't even want to think of the future, I just had to pray you would survive day by day. Never could I have imagined how you would grow and how I could manage to  love you more every day. I love you to the moon and back Monkey Moo, happy 3rd birthday

You at birth



you at 3